I'm 30 and have lived and loved in the same town my entire life (which is shrinking as you will soon read). I suppose I've always been a little co-dependent. I get lonely very easily and prefer to be in some sort of relationship. Casual dating is enough to sustain that need with one problem..... I'm not going to get all arrogant just yet, but lets just say I rarely have much difficulty meeting women. As a result, casual dating regularly gets me into trouble because I end up dating several women at once. The blogs to follow will contain stories that started in September of 2008. Many many interesting things occurred prior to that, but my memory isn't that great, so we are going to start just a few months back. I will give you all a brief overview of the prior 10 years.
I started dating my highschool sweetheart at 17, married her at 21, and divorced her at 25. She was unfaithful several times and the entire scenario started the process of screwing me up.
Shortly after my divorce I met Jill. I could right novels on my year and a half with her. The climax was getting chased around the house with a butcher knife and having virtually everything I owned stolen by her. There are so many great stories here, but again, I'm not going that far back.
After Jill, followed what my friends call "the summer of Joe". I finally had the confidence I had been lacking and went on an absolute tear for several months. I broke a lot of hearts, dealt with a ton of drama, and drank like a fish. Again, there are several stories here, but unless requests come in (which I doubt), that's all I intend to say about that summer.
Six months after my breakup with Jill, I met Meredith. Meredith and I survived for 2.5 years and were only a few months away from our wedding day when I realized I was about to make another mistake and called it off. If I have any real regrets in life, then this was it. Mere is a wonderful person, and I hurt her badly. Somehow we salvaged a friendship, but I will always hate myself a little for hanging on to something that I new wasn't working for me and then crushing her.
I dated around for about 4 months after Meredith and I split and then I met the most evil women I have every known. Monica is the straw that broke the camels back and left me unhappy and unable to commit to much of anything. We were only together 3 months, but it was a whirlwind relationship. I fell in love fast and she was AMAZING for a short time. I had never before and probably never again felt a connection of this kind. I lost my job a couple months in and she encouraged me to give up my apartment and move in with her to save money while I looked for work. I knew it was fast, but under the circumstances, it made sense, so I packed my things. In a very short time, Monica began to show her true colors. She was a bigot like I had never encountered. She was horribly jealous and alienated me from my friends. She was very self centered. She actually said to me "you should be kissing my ass, all guys kiss my ass". I took her on a 2 week trip to Florida and spent a bunch of money I didn't have. Just a couple days after we returned she told me she wasn't happy and wanted me out. I loaded my clothes and dog into my jeep and headed to the bar with no clue where to go next.
I had just lost my love, my career, and my home in a 4 week period. I was crushed. I pleaded for her to reconsider (obviously I had no self respect at this point). She tore me apart in text msgs, emails, and voicemails. She then proceeded to flaunt new guys in front of me and spread rumors that I was stalking her. Trust me, guys like me don't stalk. I tried via the phone for 72 hours only to get her back, then came to my senses and never pursued her again. Either way, a good friend took me in and I have been living here and looking for work ever since. So the following posts will include stories of the women I have dated in the last 5 months, and I see no immediate end to them, so brace yourself, its gonna be fun (funny, tragic, etc.) ride.
Joe
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